A Letter to the Lost and Restless

If you have been feeling lost, stuck, or directionless in the past couple of months, or even longer, you are not alone.  One of my wise spiritual teachers described this transition perfectly. It’s as if we have been unplugged from our old center, but haven’t been plugged into a new one yet. Everything we used to identify with, the way we grounded ourselves in the past, even the desires we used to long for so passionately, may be shifting now.   You may find yourself asking these days, “What am I doing with my life?”  “What do I even want now?”  If so, you are right on track, even though you may not be coming to any conclusions just yet.   

It would be easy to say, “Just wait and you will gain clarity soon.”   And there is some truth to that.  However, for most people, especially Artists, being in ‘waiting‘ mode can be more threatening to the psyche than actually giving up. Nothing shuts a creative soul down faster than ‘waiting‘ for something to happen.  And distracting ourselves with busy work so we feel like we’re being productive creates a great illusion, but it’s not actually moving us forward.   

So what are we to do as we let go of everything we’ve known, and find ourselves staring into the invisible?  The answer is simple.  OBSERVE the SELF.  

There is nothing like the invisible to shine a light on our deepest belief systems, and the hidden shadows of our ego esteem.   This is where we find out the depth of our FAITH.  This is where we find out what we really BELIEVE about ourselves and God.  This is the moment where we see what is really driving our choices, is it LOVE or is it SHAME or GUILT or FEAR?    It’s scary how quickly we can go up and down with our money, our relationships, our work, and completely self abuse and destruct when we are without.  The level of our attachment to the things we think are keeping us safe, worthy and accepted in this world are being tested right now.  

No friends, this is certainly not a time of waiting.  It is a time of observing the self and healing the layers of shame, guilt, self-doubt, or fear that are coming up to the surface right now.  It’s all coming up for deletion, but we can only HEAL it, if we’re willing to FEEL it.   Just allowing yourself to be PRESENT to what is threatening to take you DOWN during this transition, you will receive a very clear direction as to what you’re inner work is.   

And I believe that is exactly what this time is for.  The INNER work.  This is the courageous work no one will ever know about, it won’t go on your resume, you won’t get a big paycheck at the end, and you probably won’t ever win a trophy for it.  But it is the work that is no longer optional if you want to live an impactful life, experiencing true success and love in your life.  

It’s time to check ourselves beyond being a good person, or being a hard worker.  It’s time to really get to know our TRUE selves.   If you are not experiencing the deep PEACE of knowing, ‘I am loved.  I am cherished. I am necessary.  I am provided for in all ways.  I have nothing to fear.  I have not and can not do anything wrong,”  then you are not yet in alignment with your TRUE SELF.  

If you’re not being who you know you can be in this world, 

this is your opportunity to find out why, 

and CHANGE it. 

Why wait to see what happens when you have all the power within you to CREATE what happens? 

How to ASK for help and RECEIVE it

Dear Trina, 

You said something in our call I need to imbed, having to do with asking for what I need or help. I want to remember it how you said it. It was referring to my readiness to move forward and receive what I need from angels, etc. I'm learning how to ask for the help I need, what I can expect, and what you said hit me. Now I'm just trying to recall it. Obviously I haven't asked enough or recognized I could, in the past.   

- B from Salt Lake City, UT

Dear B, 

Asking for help is the easiest action we can take in life, yet it seems to be the last thing we often think of.  Why is that?   I feel it is because in our ‘humanness’, we’ve created  fear, and the idea that we are separate from God/Source/Creator. And in that illusion, we think we have to deserve help, or feel guilty for receiving it.  We judge what we need as not important or selfish, or sadly, we feel like there is no connection at all to a Source who would provide for us and all of our needs. 

The Truth is, you are and have never been separate from the Source which created you and the divine blueprint which is your life.  And from that same Source, ALL infinite blessings, potential, guidance and possibilities flow and are accessible.  

Our ONLY responsibility is to give ourselves permission to ASK and RECEIVE that help. 

We were born with free will, which means we can choose to live out situations however we want.  We can choose fear, or we can choose love at every moment. This is why Spirit can not intervene unless we ask for help!  

Asking is as simple as having a conversation.    

“Dear God/Guides/Angels/Universal Source...I NEED and RECEIVE YOUR HELP NOW! Thank you for providing me all my needs, in the perfect timing.  Thank you for guiding and surrounding me with the perfect people.  Thank you for providing me all the resources I desire and need.  I’m so grateful I’m in perfect flow with my life and all that I love and that I am being prepared for the life I chose and am meant to live.” 

You can also ask for specific needs, big and small.  However, many times we limit our needs, or we don’t even know what we need for sure, we just know something needs to change.  And that change is always in us, in our perspective.  

We often pray for our circumstances to change, however, 

the change that needs to occur is in us, so we can see it differently.  

Everything in life is happening FOR you, not TO you.  

This is why we want to SURRENDER and let go of OUR will,  OUR timing, OUR limitations of what we think we need, and how we need them to happen.   We often imagine our lives so much smaller than what is actually possible for us.  We also tend to want to avoid pain or grieving, where it is NECESSARY for our growth, and those involved.   Everyone came here to play a role, and no matter how much we want their role to change, it’s a soul agreement that has already been written.   In the end, there is one thing we can trust and know for sure:  

“We never ask for help for our highest good, that is not supplied in our highest good.”

One of my favorite quotes from A Course in Miracles states,  

“You can have a grievance or you can have a miracle, but you can’t have both.”  

What I believe this is saying is, “Once you ask for help, let God help.”  

We must TRUST that everything is working out just as it should.  If you don’t get the money, it’s possible you didn’t need the money. If you don’t get the job, it’s possible that job wasn’t the best job for you at this time.  Where there is not LOVE (in any form), it’s a cry for LOVE.   So practice being without the money, and LOVE your life anyway.   If you don’t get the job, LOVE yourself and your abilities anyways.  If your relationship isn’t working out, give LOVE to the relationship with yourself even more.  

When we are in the energy of LOVE, we are available to seeing and receiving more LOVE. 

Spirit isn’t going to harm and confuse you by giving you false substitutes of LOVE,

 and let you believe there is power and security in things outside of you.  

All that you want and desire is WITHIN YOU.  

The power to step into your greatest life is WITHIN YOU. 

All that is in the outer world only reflects YOU and the relationship you have with God/Your TRUE SELF.  

So I encourage you to reconnect to that infinite source within you today, and just simply start the conversation.  

When all your needs get met, please remember you did not just get ‘lucky’.  

You simply realigned yourself with what has been yours all along.    

EXPECT A MIRACLE!!!

Blessings,

Trina Harmon

Another Artist Wake Up Call

How many Hollywood tragedies must we watch before we CHANGE? 

When I saw the alert of Cory Monteith's death come across my phone, I felt an overwhelming impact as energy moved through my whole body. I experienced a wave of pain in my neck and shoulder, a pressure on my left side so heavy I could not move my arm, a moment of deep grief, hurt and sadness, and profound love that will now go unexperienced and unexpressed. I never met Cory, but my connection to him feels incredibly strong, because I am him. I have been him. Many of you Artists who are reading this now, feel exactly what I am saying. 

As we step more and more into the light with our gifts, 

that light also shines brightly on the places we try to escape. 

The emotions we want to avoid or don't understand

The memories we want to forget 

The secrets we fear becoming known 

The fear of being seen and heard fully 

The insecurities of being human and feeling rejection

The struggle of receiving enormous amounts of love and attention

The loneliness and vulnerability of being 'BIG' in the world while others stay small 

The enormous challenge of balancing the energy to give to yourself, the world and a relationship at the same time 

The pain of feeling alone

The emptiness of feeling unworthy 

The duality and confusion of our true selves and our famous selves 

The pressure of repeating what we had no control over in the first place. 

Feeling 'fake' and the fear getting found out 

The stress of holding an image we now feel obligated to project for other people 

The responsibility we now have to know and be true to ourselves, while everyone is watching.
 

And from this space, the more powerful we become, the more power we give away. We let publicists tell us what to say and how to manipulate and avoid our Truth. We allow executives to tell us where to go, how to work, who to work with and what will work. (i.e. the way it's worked before) Every hour of the day is so overbooked and squeezed into the other, we have no time to create a direct channel to our Truth and stay there.  We are taught to honor being ‘busy‘ and mistake that for productivity. We are lead and pushed by a system, that no longer allows us to create or feel, or even choose. Why are we not feeling our success? 

This old system does not consider that being an Artist is a SPIRITUAL JOB, 

and the journey of self is directly related to the success of the Artist.

And let’s be honest, we the Artists, pray for this team, we long to be this busy, we crave this illusion of success and we say YES to all of it, in fear of losing what we've waited for for so long. But then we relinquish the reigns, hoping they know more than we do, or believing they can create the impactful synergy we know we were born for. And that’s the point we throw ourselves away. We stop making our own choices. We stop creating. We stop leading and we enter waiting, blaming, self- doubt, and fear.

And we, the Artists, are DYING. We are checking out. We are becoming blocked to our own knowing. We feel disconnected. We are disillusioned that drugs help us connect to a higher realm. We think we can escape ourselves, to access being more ourselves. We are co-dependent in relationships that are laced in neediness, jealousy, and fear. We are depressed. We are scared. We are addicts. We are broke. We are hiding, and crying for attention at the same time. We are becoming sick by our own suppressed feelings. We feel isolated from the rest of society and our own Artist community. We are believing the lies and faking the Truth. We are sabotaging our own happiness and our dreams, all because we haven't been taught how to hold and manage THAT MUCH!

                          

No matter what you achieve in the outer world, 

you will only experience the success your current belief system will allow. 

It is time to receive the Truth that your belief system 

will not be healed by achieving more!  

YOU NEED PROOF? 

Cory's final press release announcing his death ended with the words, "Monteith had been a lead character on the musical comedy GLEE since it began in 2009. In 2011, he won a Teen Choice Award for top actor in a comedy. The show's cast won a Screen Actors Guild Award for an ensemble in a comedy the previous year. He was also in three projects that are in post-production."

I am sick inside. We are losing our best Artists to this cycle of pain. This level of pain can be necessary to activate and motivate the Artist within us, but we were never meant to stay there. We are losing our most powerful voices and influences in the world. And our industry has abandoned us, as we have abandoned ourselves.
 

I know it may seem like everyone is trying to do what you do. But there are probably less than 10% of the world that actually CAN and have the calling to do so. There are 7 billion people on this planet who only heal and know themselves through what YOU create and share. This is how necessary you are right now. I believe it is the Artist that holds the power to lift us from the mass collective pain, and shift us into the experience of LOVE in all it’s forms. We were born the observers, with the ability to create what has never existed before. And more importantly, we were all born with the NEED to create what we most need to heal. 

You are not in competition here! There is not near enough of you who are awake enough to serve all the people who are in need and desperately searching for what you haven’t created yet. One thing I know for certain is being this Artist takes your WHOLE life, it takes your full AWARENESS, it demands your fullest embodied self, a balance of spirit and ego. All the things drugs and alcohol and battered self esteem steal from you. 

 

We are past having the conversation as to why our most gifted Artists are dying, and wandering around the streets of Hollywood and numerous courtrooms in manic states of mental illness. I personally think Dr. Drew has single handedly fulfilled this duty to exhaustion.
 

It is not the doctors who are going to solve this epidemic. It isn’t going to be the leaders of our industry. It’s not going to be as simple as more awareness.

It’s going to be the Artist, the ultimate translators of Truth for the world. The Artist must take responsibility for their own lives now. We must reclaim our POWER and GIFTS and create a brand new industry for ourselves. We must create and lead a new form of management and support system, create a new way of serving our audience, and enter a whole new paradigm of sharing ourselves without losing ourselves. And you are not alone in this! There are executives out there who are Artist/Healer archetypes themselves, and I’ve been watching many of them remove themselves or be forced out of their jobs, so they can heal, gain a truer perspective, and then infiltrate it from a different angle. They are not done, but they need to be inspired by YOU.

And the time is NOW. Without YOU they have nothing to build or expand upon. It is time we get comfortable with the fact that we have that much power, we are that in demand, and we must lead our teams!

Where do you begin? It begins by saying YES to the the inner work. You must stop putting yourself last. Where we are in relationship to ourselves/Source, is what we will experience in our career, and all the other areas. Being an Artist takes your whole life, as we don’t get to hide the stuff we don’t like. It is an agreement our soul made long ago.

I’ve always said, “An Artist is someone who wants nothing more than to be seen and heard, while feeling completely terrified of being seen and heard.” 

 

If you are suffering in your success or your perceived lack of success, there is help for you! Get on your knees, and ASK for it! If you are reading this right now, you have already connected with one person who is here, especially for you. 

As I write this, I hold every Artist, every Healer, discovered and undiscovered, in a golden light. In this light, every possibility exists, new life exists, the old story is healed, and a new story is born from Truth. And I trust every willing being will be met with their perfect teachers and guides, as we can not do this work on our own. Love can only be experienced through challenge, and we are feeling and meeting that challenge now, united as one force for CHANGE. And finally, I hold the deepest gratitude for the Artists, like Cory, who inspire the AWAKENING in us all. 

Blessings, 

Trina Harmon 

What 41 Years Have Taught Me So Far

On March 13th, I turned 41 years old.  Most days, I still feel like I’m in my 20’s, still discovering all the layers and beautiful complexities that life has to offer.  But I am deeply grateful I have been led to the ancient spiritual truths that help me create choices far more rewarding than the ones I was making 20 years ago! 

So many lessons upon lessons have been offered up for me to learn and integrate, and I have been leaning in, gently.  Sometimes, I’ve been pushed off the high dive, not knowing where or how I was going to land.  But one thing experience has taught me is,  

“Every time I truly surrender, 

I always find myself being carried above the waves, 

not being drug through them.”  

This past year, I’ve practiced saying, ‘YES’.   This YES is a far different agreement with my soul, than the self-willed determined, desperate ambition I had in my younger years.   It’s a commitment to RECEIVE, not DO.   It’s a pledge to be available, open, and truly ready for what it is I say I want, especially when it’s coming to me in a way I didn’t see coming.  

Finally,  I’m learning to trust what I’ve been told since I was a kid.  “Everything happens for a reason.”  In survival mode,  I’ve never held still long enough to really ponder the reasons.  But today, I am constantly reminded that I am safe to TRUST there is a purpose to every thing, every relationship, every loss, every opportunity, and it ALWAYS realigns me and leads to my desire or something greater. There is nothing I haven’t earned, or proven myself enough for.  There is nothing I am not worthy of.  

There is no amount of love that is being kept from me, 

only withheld by me.   

When I don’t look for LOVE everywhere, I don’t see LOVE anywhere.   When I actually look, I see it.  I feel it. I swim in it.  A perspective based in Divine Truth can shift an entire lifetime of collected opinions and fear based beliefs.  

I’ve also spent this year doing something I’ve never done before, consciously.  I’ve asked spirit to help me PRACTICE.  I was born just knowing how to play the piano, writing and structuring complete songs came easily to me, holding my own on a stage in front of 120,000 people as a young teenager was just another day, intuitively seeing the soul’s plan for another was never learned, it just flows through me effortlessly.   I’ve rarely followed through with things that I had to be in Kindergarten, and ‘learn’.  In fact, now that I think about it, I already knew how to read before I entered Kindergarten!   I’ve spent a lifetime just doing what I already knew how to do, and what came easy. And thankfully, it is my gift, my calling, and something I love to contribute to the world. 

However, there are areas of life I still want to master, that I have not yet.  

And I’m no longer willing to surrender my desire, 

because it hasn’t come easy.   

So I asked my angels to give me people to practice with, opportunities to see where I am, and where I still need to grow.  My prayer was instantly answered in relationship. The very next man I met that peeked my curiosity, even said those exact words to me, “If you would like to practice with me until you connect with what you really desire, I’ll let you.”    He had no idea what he signed up for!  What a beautiful soul to show up and be exactly what my heart yearned for.  That is just one example of how I’ve experience God’s hand in my life.  

And I so appreciate the other humans in life 

who listen to their own callings and intuition, 

especially when it makes very little sense.  

Another life-changing idea that my spiritual teacher offered me this year was to “Get Curious”.   I’m often tempted to shut down ideas, potential actions, people, or requests right away without much thought.  Sometimes, this is my own powerful intuition coming through, but other times, it is just the smallness of my mind, not able to ‘see’ the possibility in it.  It can be very difficult to discern.  But when I’ve allowed myself to just hold still long enough to be curious, I’ve found myself receiving more than I ever have, and being able to serve in ways I never saw possible.  

After 41 years of living in this world, I now know that there is no such thing as right or wrong.  I do not have to judge someone else for their choices, in order to feel more accomplished in mine.   I continue to create for no other reason than because I can.   In myself and others, I cherish the ability to be present, and the ability to forgive, more than any other.   I’m now hyper aware of the meaning I give to things, to other people’s words and actions, and how mislead I have been in the past.  And in that confusion, I have guarded and abused myself with false beliefs, suppressing and numbing, harmful addictions, and patterns that have created only a fraction of the life I could have been experiencing.  

So today, I hold and allow a new desire in my heart, because I will always want more. I choose to live and activate a potential I have not experienced or even imagined yet, and I want to take everyone along with me!  I want everyone who desires it,  to thrive in this same frequency of love and possibility!   

At age 38, I got a huge wake up call, and what followed was a magical journey of grieving, healing and transformation.   I spent many many hours with my God and my spiritual teachers, and for the first time, my own soul,  feeling so empty, unfulfilled, betrayed, unloved, and most of all, alone.   

Only 4 years later, I celebrate the overflow of love running through me, that no one has the power to remove or steal away, because it is MINE. It is authentically ME. I have so much, I can’t give enough away!  

I want to say I’ve worked so hard for this,  but I truly haven’t.  

I’ve SURRENDERED so much to finally receive what was there all along.    

As we are never done growing, I know there is only more unfolding for me on the path ahead.  And I am excited.  I am curious.  I am ready.  

I say YES YES YES to all that I have been, all that I've become, and all that I am becoming.  

And most importantly, in the moments ahead 

where I may forget all of this, 

I pray to remember.   

                                                                                       -Trina Harmon