Another Artist Wake Up Call

How many Hollywood tragedies must we watch before we CHANGE? 

When I saw the alert of Cory Monteith's death come across my phone, I felt an overwhelming impact as energy moved through my whole body. I experienced a wave of pain in my neck and shoulder, a pressure on my left side so heavy I could not move my arm, a moment of deep grief, hurt and sadness, and profound love that will now go unexperienced and unexpressed. I never met Cory, but my connection to him feels incredibly strong, because I am him. I have been him. Many of you Artists who are reading this now, feel exactly what I am saying. 

As we step more and more into the light with our gifts, 

that light also shines brightly on the places we try to escape. 

The emotions we want to avoid or don't understand

The memories we want to forget 

The secrets we fear becoming known 

The fear of being seen and heard fully 

The insecurities of being human and feeling rejection

The struggle of receiving enormous amounts of love and attention

The loneliness and vulnerability of being 'BIG' in the world while others stay small 

The enormous challenge of balancing the energy to give to yourself, the world and a relationship at the same time 

The pain of feeling alone

The emptiness of feeling unworthy 

The duality and confusion of our true selves and our famous selves 

The pressure of repeating what we had no control over in the first place. 

Feeling 'fake' and the fear getting found out 

The stress of holding an image we now feel obligated to project for other people 

The responsibility we now have to know and be true to ourselves, while everyone is watching.
 

And from this space, the more powerful we become, the more power we give away. We let publicists tell us what to say and how to manipulate and avoid our Truth. We allow executives to tell us where to go, how to work, who to work with and what will work. (i.e. the way it's worked before) Every hour of the day is so overbooked and squeezed into the other, we have no time to create a direct channel to our Truth and stay there.  We are taught to honor being ‘busy‘ and mistake that for productivity. We are lead and pushed by a system, that no longer allows us to create or feel, or even choose. Why are we not feeling our success? 

This old system does not consider that being an Artist is a SPIRITUAL JOB, 

and the journey of self is directly related to the success of the Artist.

And let’s be honest, we the Artists, pray for this team, we long to be this busy, we crave this illusion of success and we say YES to all of it, in fear of losing what we've waited for for so long. But then we relinquish the reigns, hoping they know more than we do, or believing they can create the impactful synergy we know we were born for. And that’s the point we throw ourselves away. We stop making our own choices. We stop creating. We stop leading and we enter waiting, blaming, self- doubt, and fear.

And we, the Artists, are DYING. We are checking out. We are becoming blocked to our own knowing. We feel disconnected. We are disillusioned that drugs help us connect to a higher realm. We think we can escape ourselves, to access being more ourselves. We are co-dependent in relationships that are laced in neediness, jealousy, and fear. We are depressed. We are scared. We are addicts. We are broke. We are hiding, and crying for attention at the same time. We are becoming sick by our own suppressed feelings. We feel isolated from the rest of society and our own Artist community. We are believing the lies and faking the Truth. We are sabotaging our own happiness and our dreams, all because we haven't been taught how to hold and manage THAT MUCH!

                          

No matter what you achieve in the outer world, 

you will only experience the success your current belief system will allow. 

It is time to receive the Truth that your belief system 

will not be healed by achieving more!  

YOU NEED PROOF? 

Cory's final press release announcing his death ended with the words, "Monteith had been a lead character on the musical comedy GLEE since it began in 2009. In 2011, he won a Teen Choice Award for top actor in a comedy. The show's cast won a Screen Actors Guild Award for an ensemble in a comedy the previous year. He was also in three projects that are in post-production."

I am sick inside. We are losing our best Artists to this cycle of pain. This level of pain can be necessary to activate and motivate the Artist within us, but we were never meant to stay there. We are losing our most powerful voices and influences in the world. And our industry has abandoned us, as we have abandoned ourselves.
 

I know it may seem like everyone is trying to do what you do. But there are probably less than 10% of the world that actually CAN and have the calling to do so. There are 7 billion people on this planet who only heal and know themselves through what YOU create and share. This is how necessary you are right now. I believe it is the Artist that holds the power to lift us from the mass collective pain, and shift us into the experience of LOVE in all it’s forms. We were born the observers, with the ability to create what has never existed before. And more importantly, we were all born with the NEED to create what we most need to heal. 

You are not in competition here! There is not near enough of you who are awake enough to serve all the people who are in need and desperately searching for what you haven’t created yet. One thing I know for certain is being this Artist takes your WHOLE life, it takes your full AWARENESS, it demands your fullest embodied self, a balance of spirit and ego. All the things drugs and alcohol and battered self esteem steal from you. 

 

We are past having the conversation as to why our most gifted Artists are dying, and wandering around the streets of Hollywood and numerous courtrooms in manic states of mental illness. I personally think Dr. Drew has single handedly fulfilled this duty to exhaustion.
 

It is not the doctors who are going to solve this epidemic. It isn’t going to be the leaders of our industry. It’s not going to be as simple as more awareness.

It’s going to be the Artist, the ultimate translators of Truth for the world. The Artist must take responsibility for their own lives now. We must reclaim our POWER and GIFTS and create a brand new industry for ourselves. We must create and lead a new form of management and support system, create a new way of serving our audience, and enter a whole new paradigm of sharing ourselves without losing ourselves. And you are not alone in this! There are executives out there who are Artist/Healer archetypes themselves, and I’ve been watching many of them remove themselves or be forced out of their jobs, so they can heal, gain a truer perspective, and then infiltrate it from a different angle. They are not done, but they need to be inspired by YOU.

And the time is NOW. Without YOU they have nothing to build or expand upon. It is time we get comfortable with the fact that we have that much power, we are that in demand, and we must lead our teams!

Where do you begin? It begins by saying YES to the the inner work. You must stop putting yourself last. Where we are in relationship to ourselves/Source, is what we will experience in our career, and all the other areas. Being an Artist takes your whole life, as we don’t get to hide the stuff we don’t like. It is an agreement our soul made long ago.

I’ve always said, “An Artist is someone who wants nothing more than to be seen and heard, while feeling completely terrified of being seen and heard.” 

 

If you are suffering in your success or your perceived lack of success, there is help for you! Get on your knees, and ASK for it! If you are reading this right now, you have already connected with one person who is here, especially for you. 

As I write this, I hold every Artist, every Healer, discovered and undiscovered, in a golden light. In this light, every possibility exists, new life exists, the old story is healed, and a new story is born from Truth. And I trust every willing being will be met with their perfect teachers and guides, as we can not do this work on our own. Love can only be experienced through challenge, and we are feeling and meeting that challenge now, united as one force for CHANGE. And finally, I hold the deepest gratitude for the Artists, like Cory, who inspire the AWAKENING in us all. 

Blessings, 

Trina Harmon